The First

There must always be a first. One that is a little uncomfortable.. trying to feel out your place in the blogging world.

Lets make this painless.

I want The Make-Over to include whatever means necessary to make you happy... I think the first step is realizing that you control your own life.

A little about me.... The first thing I did was started purging people out of my life that were not, for lack of better words, helpful or productive to me. Person #1: My daughters dad. This purge happened almost 3 years ago to the day. I had a relapse about 6 months into it, but quickly learned my lesson. We are now to the point where we can be civil to each other, but getting him out of my life was the first step I needed to do to be happy. The next step was getting rid of friends that used me and took advantage of me. That was hard. I was so used to having others depend on me and ask for help. I loved providing that help... but didn't like not getting anything in return. I felt used.

The most important thing that I learned from this step in my life (looking back at it now) is that I ACTUALLY control my life!! I was always run by people that took advantage of my sincerity, friendship, and love for others.. or by a boy that thought my place in life was waiting on him hand and foot. Not anymore. I'm Free!

Its so freeing just saying it.


I control my life.
I control my life.
I CONTROL MY LIFE.


I have realized that I may have a Bachelors degree, but it doesn't mean I have to use it. I can do as many odd jobs as I need to take care of my family and support them the way I need to. Right now my daughter is 2. She needs me (and honestly, I need her). I am so happy working 2 part time jobs and be able to stay home with her and raise her 99% of the time.



I have reunited with my high school sweetheart and it is so surreal. I feel like he's the last piece to my puzzle. He's my other half and the person that completes me. He is my polar opposite and I love it. I can't believe I didn't have him in my life for the past 8 years.. I know why my life was such a mess then.

I just turned 27 a week ago, and I feel that a light bulb finally went off in my head. I can be happy. I can love. I can live my life how I want it.

Until next time..